These Four Former Pro Athletes are Using Psychedelics to Heal Their Brain Injuries

Excerpt from Forbes.com, November 26th, 2020


A segment on a recent episode of HBO’s Real Sports With Bryant Gumbel begins with former NHL player Daniel Carcillo describing his plan to kill himself. He’s one of four athletes in the episode who after retiring from full-contact sports had been both physically and mentally traumatized by the long-term effects of repeated concussions, and has now found relief with psychedelics.

Carcillo, former NFL player Kerry Rhodes, and former UFC fighters Ian McCall and Dean Lister are part of a growing movement of people using plant medicines like ayahuasca and magic mushrooms to help heal post-traumatic stress disorder and the symptoms of brain trauma.


Underground Group Ceremonies Lead To Profound Change In Former MMA Stars

McCall fought in the UFC and other professional MMA leagues for 15 years before finally tapping out. Injury after injury had left him snorting opiate painkillers including fentanyl on a regular basis, turning him into a self-described “monster.” Experimenting with psychedelics, he says, helped cure him of his addiction and suicidal thoughts.

Retired MMA fighters Ian McCall and Dean Lister
Photo courtesy of HBO

Today, he is committed to helping improve the mental health of other former fighters by showing them how life-altering regular group experiences with psychedelic medicines can be.

“Fighters are good people,” McCall says, “but they’re tormented.” The Real Sports segment takes viewers inside a private ceremony in which a group of fighters including grappler and former UFC star Lister are guided through a psilocybin trip by a shaman.

Will Mushrooms Go the Way of Cannabis? Legalization Efforts are Growing

Excerpt from Ocregister.com, November 27th 2020


When Ian McCall retired in 2018, at age 34, from a 16-year career in mixed martial arts, he dedicated himself to a new kind of fight.

He wanted relief from the depression and anxiety that had plagued him since he was growing up in Dana Point, where he was known as a bully, a gang member and a self-proclaimed “savage.” His initial mental health issues had been compounded over the years by personal traumas and brain injuries that McCall sustained from a snowboarding accident and years in the octagon.

Retired MMA fighter Ian McCall stands inside a teepee style tent at his wellness retreat in Desert Hot Springs on Friday, Nov. 27, 2020, where he plans to start a psychedelic sports institute to help other athletes. (Photo by Watchara Phomicinda, The Press-Enterprise/SCNG)

He’d sought refuge in oxycontin, fentanyl and cocktails of other substances. At times McCall contemplated suicide, once going so far as putting a loaded gun in his mouth.

Can Microdosing Make You a Better Athlete?

Excerpt from Playboy.com, November 6th, 2020


When most of us think of psychedelics, the last thing that comes to mind is increased energy, focus and range of motion while working out or competing in sports. But in microdoses that are as little as one-twentieth of a full “tripping” dose (around 3 grams of mushrooms or 120 micrograms of LSD), athletes are taking psilocybin mushrooms and LSD out of the woods and into the gym to enhance athletic performance and take their training to the next level.

In 2018, strength and conditioning coaches D.J. Murakami and Tom Mountjoy began pairing their daily movement practices with microdoses of psilocybin mushrooms. They were blown away by the results they experienced: more energy, confidence and flexibility in their workouts, plus the sensation of getting lost in time while working out. After sharing their personal experiences with each other and their tens of thousands of Instagram followers, Murakami and Mountjoy formed The Emptiness Lab, an online community for athletes around the globe to share their microdose-and-training experiences. The group quickly evolved into an amateur research study of nearly 20 athletes who microdosed to enhance their workouts. The eclectic group of yogis, endurance runners, weightlifters and personal trainers provided weekly self-reports on their performance, mood, sociability, libido and other more traditional athletic metrics such as strength and flexibility.


Pursuing a flow state is a popular reason people microdose, whether they’re athletes, artists or programmers. The concept of a flow state, where mental chatter quiets down and you can become absorbed in a task for hours without noticing the time go by, was first recognized by psychologist Mihály Csíkszentmihályi in 1975. While the mechanism is still quite mysterious to researchers, high doses of psilocybin and other psychedelics have been shown to reduce activity in the “default mode network”—the brain’s future planning and self-referential thinking center. Scientists aren’t certain about whether microdosing has the same default mode network effect, but a 2019 study on microdosing found participants experienced “significant reductions in mind wandering,” which the authors wrote could “reduce distractibility and increase capacity to focus on the task at hand”—two of the most important components of flow.

Yet finding a flow state via microdosing remains extremely dose-specific. While the optimal “subperceptual” microdose for boosting athletic performance varies among individuals, the effect is meant to be extremely subtle. McCall and Murakami both describe microdosing around 0.1 to 0.25 grams of psilocybin mushrooms for their workouts, sometimes slightly more depending on the activity. (An average recreational dose is closer to two or three full grams.) Mountjoy recommends starting low, around 0.115 grams, and working up from there. Doses higher than 0.25 grams or so can throw training goals out the window, especially when it comes to routine tasks like repetitive workouts. This is the main reported negative side effect from athletes when they accidentally take more than a microdose: Their concentration and coordination can quickly go from optimized to impaired. But for some, beginning to trip slightly is a small price to pay for athletic gains.

Accountability Partners | Ian McCall & Irena Marin

Excerpt from Simplecast.com, October 6th, 2020


Retired MMA fighter Ian McCall and his partner Irena Marin fight trauma with psychedelic therapy. After an addiction to pain killers, Ian discovered psilocybin as an alternative medicine to heal trauma. Now, Ian considers himself the first psychedelic integration coach for high level athletes.

MMA Star Goes From Hitting People to Healing People

Excerpt from Psychedelicspotlight.com, August 12th, 2020


Psychedelic advocacy is filled with all sorts of healers: therapists, PHDs, psychiatrists, shamans and scientists. Also this one guy who can easily choke you unconscious.

Ian McCall is a mixed martial artist, a former professional fighter, now retired, who fought at the highest level of his sport. And he’s a passionate booster of psychedelic therapy.

How did McCall go from hurting people to helping people? First he had to get well himself.

“I was on suicide watch when I retired,” McCall says. “I was a mess. I was broken.”

It will surprise no one to hear the sport of mixed martial arts is brutally difficult. Competitors attack one another in a cage until their opponent submits or is unable to defend themselves, saved by a referee. 

Ian praying

What’s less understood is how truly elite these athletes are. 

Carlon Colker, a Connecticut physician who has trained or advised sports champions like Shaquille O’Neal and Andre Agassi told Sports Illustrated, “If you’re going to measure every parameter [endurance, flexibility, coordination, strength], without a doubt, MMA fighters are the most accomplished athletes out there. It’s not even close.”

The Transformation of Ian McCall: Uncle Creepy’s Second Act

Excerpt from Hustlermagazine.com, December 6th 2019


If you ask Ian McCall, he’ll tell you that he should be dead at least a couple of times over. But after nearly 20 years of fighting for a living, acting like an asshole and taking copious amounts of drugs, he managed to only “die” once (from an overdose), and even then he was eventually brought back to the land of the living and conscious.

Ian in deep thought

Even after retiring from mixed martial arts in May 2018, McCall was still battling the demons of his past. Dealing with the same existential crisis that many fighters face upon retirement, the flyweight known best for his “Uncle Creepy” moniker and signature mustache spent months enduring the fallout of a nasty breakup and finding a meaning to life beyond putting his physical well-being on the line for the entertainment of others.